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Today my mood is very up and down =.= Hais
Firstly i would like to thx my ah nehss to accompany me home and have a view of taman jurong @_@ They gave me their comment is this place is soo...... hmmm haha, but then still lucky still ok for me la since i have already live here for my 19 yrs =x haha.

Secondly is in the jap lesson i am super lonely loh =( all of them have their friends only me soo lonely, and the worse things is that need to have some pair up practice =.= no ppl pair up with me cos all have parther le =( damn down loh...... but then still ok la jiayou loh @_@

Hmmmm... lastly is having some comment on my family matter. I love and hate them loh. For my dad is he is sooooo useless that i have nth to say but sometime he nice but only rare time la =x anw he still my father. Regarding my mum i love her lot cos she is a very very wonderful mum that i think she is the best just that hate her that she do not know how to love herself, always think of us first before think of herself. Haizz..... Oh my that stupid brother is sooo bad loh, bad attitude and i dun think our relationship is good till other ppl want this kind of relationship between slibing loh, we not good but we just dun have the time to be hating each other as we dun really have thing to say and i think ever have anything wan to say to him loh.
I really wonder why ppl can't have a best attitude to their family member who are their love one and close one. Is cos that we used to it le? Feel that it should be this way? Or Is cos we r family then dun really bother to treasure each other until we lose each other?Or is it that cos we r family think that no matter what we will forgive each other?
I do not think so leh... cos it will only build a wall between each other that choose to tell things or find help from friends who think is closer than family than finding family member for help. It is easy to build the wall but it is very difficult to destory the wall. I think the wall between me and my family had already built without me knowing it. That why i think i am sad or mood down when at home ba. The feeling of the 'home' isn't there anymore. So where is my home now???

Kim