What happening
Yesterday went out with Bby to VIVo. Eat till soooo full till we cannot tahan. In the end, Bby vomit out but mine still in the stomach. I hope i can vomit out too =x. Cos till now i still very full loh. Becoming fatter le la +_+ Next time then we go to eat the thing loh.My sudden feeling
I think of the timing again. To me is the older i getting the faster the time passing. Fast till i felt scare. I do not know why. Just had this kind of feeling, especially when i am enjoying. i know its normal to have this kind of feeling but........just feel scarily. I know i very the timid. Scare that and afraid this, but.... i really........Till now i still dun understand why, why bring us to the world and then force us to leave the world? Forever no answer for me. However, one thing for sure that this forever no forever as human never stay alive forever.I wan to change
Sometime i dun really understand why i am sooo lazy and totally no determination. I always do things half-ly. Got beganning but no ending. Countless of things. Such as learning dance, japanese, and more. I really very hate myself being this way. I wan to change. But how? I dunno. I really lost. Who can save me? who can help me? Pull me up and away from the "LAZY MONSTER". I really wan to change. Pls help!How to understand
I really love them i really do. But why they just dun listen to me? My dad loves to drink alot, but the problem is he cannot drink that what doctor said! But he just so subborn? Drink and drink. I told my that i wan to drink more more so that i gt higher chances to understand why he loves to drink so much. But i failed. Me only drink when i sad or happy. But i love to drink when i sad cos its taste nices. My dad have been coughing for months and ask him not to smoke but he dun listen too!!! I really dun understand why? Burning away money very enjoyable? I love him that why i worry about him. No matter how bad he is, he still my dad, my ONLY dad. Why can't he take good care of himself? Why he nv know how much i care for him?
I love my mum too. She really is the greatest mum in the world. She sooo nice soooo good soooo hardworking soooo kind-hearted and more more more. I really cannot understand how tired she is for working long hour a day. She still can take good care of this family. Sometime i hate her drinking too. But i have nth to say just ask her to take care. She had sooo many unhappiness that i can't help her to solve. I love her soooo much that i wan to be with my mum everyday!!! But not possible cos she really busy and tired. It have been a long time since we went to shopping tgt. What a sad case ar.
Afterall, no matter how i angry with them, I still very very very love them.
Thinking
YourHoney
Kim
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